Random blather...

I opened this up with the intent to write about... I'm really not for sure.

Things floating through my mind:

• Ed Rocks (death) - I need a new counselor and miss my friend
  
• babie(s) (life)
• Can I love a baby as much as I love my dog?
• If money were no object, and I wasn't so afraid of 'messing up' with my kid like I feel like my relationships sometimes are with my parents, and if I didn't believe T would be going out on tour while I'd be home taking care of baby by myself, and if I wasn't scared of what a baby would mean to my career(can I still have one?), I'd have one... I think.
  
• traditions - creating new ones
  
• teaching FT vs. PT
• applying for a FT teaching position at DVC and all the fear and insecurities that brings up for me
• my friends and how some of them float in & out on what seems to be an 'as needed' basis
• visiting with my dad and Claudia
• wanting to get over being sick (I've been sick now for five days - the advice nurse said this flu lasts between 5 and 7 days - please let this be the last day!)
• Feeling just a smidge of disappointment at thinking this flu was just that and not morning sickness (although, if this is anything like what morning sickness is, I'll pass!)
  

Well, I guess that's enough to be floating through my mind... maybe some of it will stay here on the page and I'll put some of my doubts and fears aside... at least for tonight.

G'night.